Everyone has at least one hater. That one person in your life that isn't in your corner. Fortunatly for us, most of the people in our lives are cheering us on. However, I know of a few people who have doubted our marriage from the start.
Marriage is tough. Everyone knows that. Anyone that doesn't agree is fooling themselves.
Brett and I celebrate 13 years of marriage this year. And we are happy.
Today, however, I feel like I have to defend my marriage.
Why am I writing this post? This has actually been a long time coming, but the crunch point was a few weeks ago, when things crashed spectacularly with Brett. Our world concaved and I actually was very badly wounded. For the first time in our Bipolar journey, I didn't know what to do to help him. For the first time in our journey, I really didn't know if I could make it better, for me, the Reasons or for Brett.
And the day that it all came incomprehensibly crashing, I posted on my personal facebook page. "Living with a Bipolar Sufferer is the most difficult thing in the world. I am not sure if I can do it anymore".
I was wounded. Deeply wounded.
My close friends and family, who truly know us, came to the rescue. They were there in a heart beat. And it was awesome.
However, there was a few who pelted me with stones. More than one person.
They questioned my love for my husband. Told me to "walk a day in his shoes". Indicated that I must not love him.
Let me set the record straight right now.
Not only do I love my husband with every cell in my body, but I am truly, madly and deeply IN love with him. I guess that is what makes it all so much harder.
I may vent that I can't do it anymore. That I, for a fleeting moment, wish it could end. In that moment. Hold my hands up for a short while and surrender. However, that doesn't mean that I don't love my husband. It means that I am wounded. It means that I am reaching out for help. Help that the "haters" have never given. It is just me venting. We all do it. I do it in a more public fashion. I am aware of that. Brett is aware of that. We will continue to share our lives through this blog.
But in the end, I will always be by his side. Brett knows it. I know it.
So to those people who are not in our lives on a regular basis. To those people that draw their own conclusions without even knowing the full story. Back off. I have had enough. Be told now, that we honestly don't care what you think or gossip about our marriage and family behind our backs. Well, obviously, I care a little, because in the end, you are hurting my little family. Aim all you like at me. But back off from my husband and my children.
I know that our marriage is strong. I know the deep connection that Brett and I share. I know that I am a good mother to the Five Little Reasons.
Time has and will continue to prove you all wrong.