I pulled up outside Wild Spirit Photography's studio, turned off the ignition and sat. Thinking. For about 5 mins.
"Right. I am ready. I need to do this. For me and the mothers of this world." I told myself.
It has taken me years to accept my body. Accept every little roll of skin, every stretch mark and every dimple.
I think that we as mothers put too much pressure on being just right. And really... we will never see ourselves as "just right". This makes me sad.
Now, I am not going to write about how being my weight is unhealthy or tell you that I actually don't eat enough. I am not going to explain to you that my weight gain is due to the fact that I have put my life on hold for the past 12 years to care for my family and therefore haven't taken care of myself. I am not going to dive into any of that because
1. You can go back through my blog to read "my" story; and
2. This photoshoot isn't about being overweight.
We need to allow ourselves to embrace the changes that come with motherhood. My body started changing the day I found out I was pregnant with out first. After 1 baby, it was easier to loose the extra padding. After the 2nd, I started struggling. After five babies, I am at my heaviest... but my happiest.
I am 174cms high. I am 88kgs heavy. I am size 14. I am overweight. I will not deny that. I have no excuses, but a few reasons. I should loose 10kgs or more. And one day I will.
But I am what I am today.. and it is OK!
This. Is. Me.
Thank you to Ainslie at Wild Spirit Photography. Words can not express how thankful I am for these images. They have actually made me stronger.
Head over and check her out. Not only does she take phenomenal photos, but she does workshops all around the country.
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Embrace the woman you are... today.