WOW! I don't know where to start. The past 3 week have been a roller coaster ride. I have screamed to get off at many points. Tears have flowed... sometimes slowly, sometimes rushing uncontrollably.
I still haven't managed to get used to this ride. A ride I have been traveling on for over 8 years. Will I ever be able to navigate this life without getting so emotional?
I keep saying how exhausting it is... yet I have no time to rest. One after another the ups and downs force me into a spiral.
I struggle with the thoughts I face - battling the things I NEED verses the things I have no choice but to do. And I have no choice. This is my life. It is hard. It is bitter sweet.
It is my life.
I took the past few weeks off from the blog... purely because I didn't have the energy. I was too busy with the struggles. Five kids and then myself with Gastro, trying to fill the Five Little Reasons memories with Holiday adventures, battling my anger with the world while trying to hold it together in front of my Bipolar husband.
It is exhausting. For a second, I thought about giving up my blog. I don't want to let people down. So many gorgeous people that wait for my writing. I find it difficult to stick to a blogging schedule. But I came to the realisation that it doesn't matter. I have so many gorgeous readers (I know you are there... I get your emails and messages <3 ) and I have this need to write. For you. For me.
So, I am back. Ready to face the 2nd half of the year. I have so many things to offer. I know this. And I want to offer them to you.
I really do love my life. I am one lucky girl.
Thank you for sticking around. x