I wasn't prepared for how life changing the next 3 days would be for me.
For my soul.
For my mind.
You see, I have spent every minute of every hour of ever day for the past 12 years, thinking of someone else. I left school, started working in my parents business, was only just not a teenage bride, and spent the next 10 years creating my family.
In all those years, it has never been about me.
I have never had a break. I have never been out after 9pm and I have certainly never been on a trip… solo.
We bundled the Five Little Reasons into the car and made our way down the highway to the airport. They were so excited to be going to see the planes.
We made our way through security, around to our gate and, showing that I have never travelled before, we were extremely early.
While the Five Little Reasons lined up along the window, pressing their noses to the glass, Asian tourists snapped photos of them. Joshua came up to me, a little frightened. I assured him that it was ok. They were just intrigued with the fact that there was FIVE Little Reasons. Delighted with my answer, he turned around and started posing.
Finally, the plane had been boarded and I had no more time. I waved goodbye to the Love of my Life and the Five Little Reasons through the glass as I walked on the tarmac, my heart beat silently. I slowly climbed the stairs to board the plane, my arms flapping about at the mirrored windows in the direction of where I thought my family were standing.
I found my seat and organised my onboard luggage. As the plane made it's way around to the runway, I fluffed around with my iPhone. Finally, the plane started gaining speed. The seats rattled as the sound of the engines grew louder and louder. There was a feeling of lightness as the wheels slowly lifted from the earth. I looked out the window. Tears started falling behind my glasses.
Oh. My. God.
Here. We. Go.