Thursday, October 27, 2011

My First Ambulance Ride

Yesterday afternoon, I got the fright of my life.  I was in the laundry,when I heard the bloody curdling cry.  As I came running through the kitchen, I heard Brett shout "LUCY!" and her then run fast to her room saying "I know, I am sorry, I will go to my room".

Camille was screaming.

No-breath-inbetween-cries... screaming!

I grabbed her out of Brett's arms and asked what had happened.

Lucy had dropped her on the hallway tiles.

Full on, flip in the air and land on her head, dropped her.

I ran out the front door.  My first instinct was to distract her.  Let's go find a bird, a bug, a puppy dog.

Anything... to stop the screaming.

But she didn't stop.  None of the usual "make a baby stop crying" techniques would work.

I tried to give her a feed.  She wouldn't latch.

After 10 mins of screaming, and shoving some panadol down her throat (which made her scream more), I decided to call an ambulance.

The egg was HUGE and black, and as I was looking in her eyes to check her pupils, I noticed bruising starting to appear in her eye socket.

The paramedics were wonderful.  They checked her over and all her vitals were great.  She hadn't blacked out, she hadn't vomited, she was coherent.  I asked the paramedic what he would do if it was his baby girl, and he said "I would take her to hospital".  That was all I needed to hear.

In my gut, I knew she was fine... but I always think about the "what if?"

I packed Camille's little bag with a few toys, grabbed her blanket and my jacket and we climbed into the back of the ambulance.

As we bumped down the highway, she fell asleep on my chest.  As we pulled into the hospital ER, she woke.  We stepped out of the ambulance and "checked in" to the ER.  We were shown to a cot immediately and a doctor saw us within minutes.

They were so lovely, and Camille had already forgotten about her fall and was flirting with all the hospital staff.

They kept us 4 hours - if there was any serious problems, it would show up in this time.  Her blood pressure and pulse stayed perfect and she didn't show any signs of neck or back injuries.

Finally, we were allowed to go home.  My gorgeous girlfriend came to pick us up and we drove though Macca's on the way home.  I was starving!

Camille has woken perfectly happy this morning and the egg has gone down a lot.  We have had a big meeting with the Five Little Reasons telling them that this is WHY we are ALWAYS telling them to NOT PICK UP CAMILLE.

We will continue to talk about it over the next couple of days.  She may have already forgotten about it, but I don't want the Five Little Reasons to forget.

It could have been so much more serious.

I knew my first ride in an ambulance was coming... you know... with 3 boys and all.

I didn't ever think it was going to be for my baby girl.

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Monday, October 17, 2011

Five Little Reasons and a Funeral.

Joshua spent 12 months asking for a pet bird.  He wanted to be a pirate.  For his 5th birthday, after lots of thinking, we decided to grant his wish.

The week before his birthday, we took him on a special trip up to Brisbane to a breeder of Cockatiels.  We picked up his 8 week old white baby bird.

Joshua was in heaven.

He called him "Mario".

We purchased a great big cage, and lots of toys.  We filled his cage with old branches we had found in the bush.

Mario would whistle to us every morning and "talked" to me through the kitchen window.  He would sit on our shoulders and nibble at our ears.

It was a big shock this afternoon, when Brett went out to give him some fresh seed and water.

We panicked and I quickly put him in a box and shoved him in the garage.  The kids were happily playing in the lounge room, while Brett and I discussed how to proceed.

"Just leave the cage door open and we will say he flew away" was Brett's first reaction.

I wasn't so sure.  Firstly, I had a feeling Hayden had already seen him.  Secondly, I though it would be a good time to introduce death to the Five Little Reasons.

I called on my best friend, who agreed with Brett in the "flying away" option.  At least it would give us a little time to come up with a better answer.... right?

We could replace the bird in a couple of days and say he "came back".  Only problem... he was a rare WHITE cockatiel.

There was also this feeling in my gut that Hayden had seen Mario lying in the bottom of the cage.

After a little bit more discussion, we decided to keep it real with the Five Little Reasons.  Either way, they were going to be upset... I would rather tell them the truth.

 I found a small box (empty) and we walked into the lounge room.

I didn't know how to start.  I looked at Brett and said, "How do we start?"

Brett told the kids about the circle of life.  Everyone is born, everyone lives and one day, everyone will die.  People eventually die, dogs eventually die and unfortunately, Mario got really sick today and he fell asleep and will not wake up again.

Hayden (8) piped up "Is that why he was on the bottom of the cage?"  I looked at Brett {I KNEW he had seen him}.

The tears started pooling in Lucy's (7) eyes.

Joshua (5) crumbled.  His heart broke in half.  He ran to me and wouldn't let go.  "No mummy, he isn't gone.  Wake him up".

Tears streamed down my cheeks.

We just tore our children's hearts out!

I handed Joshua the empty little box and told him we would write Mario's name on it, and they could all write their names on the box and love hearts to show him how much we loved him.

Joshua then asked to see Mario.  I looked at Brett.  We agreed, knowing that he just looked asleep and thought it would make them understand a little better seeing him.

I asked the kids to wait and I brought back Mario in the little box.  Joshua said he looked like he was sleeping and Oliver (almost 3) looked inside too.  He didn't know what was going on at all.

I closed the box and asked Lucy if she would like to say a little prayer when we buried Mario.

We went out the front and Joshua showed us where he would like Mario to be buried.  We dug a deep hole, and Joshua placed the box into the ground.  Lucy said a prayer as we started placing the dirt back over the box.

At this point... the penny dropped with Oliver.  He burst into tears.  He knew.

After our prayers, we took the Five Little Reasons inside for ice-cream.  Hayden stayed outside for a little longer.  He is a private boy and I could hear his sobs from inside.  He hadn't cried before now.

He finally came inside and I asked if he was ok.  I told him it was ok to be upset and to cry.  We hugged and he had his ice cream.

I am anticipating more questions and tears in the coming days.  We have told Joshua that when he is ready, we will go and get another bird.

He has said he will call him "Mario".

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Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Happy Birthday... to Me!

So today is my birthday.  I am feeling pretty down today.  Brett left for work at 5am, before the kids got up.  Joshua (5) was awake when he left and Brett whispered in his ear, so when I woke, Joshua remembered and said Happy Birthday.  Upon hearing him, the other Five Little Reasons said happy birthday over breakfast.

I felt pretty lonely today.   My best friend came over with a gift and a song and dance before school drop off.  I then spent the whole day on my own.  I received a phone call from my parents at 1pm and a message from my brother on facebook.

For everyone else... it was just another day.  Facebook doesn't know my birthday.  I don't want the empty birthday wishes from people just because they were "told" to write on my wall.  This meant that not one person wished me a happy birthday.  Not one person, outside of my immediate family, remembered my birthday.

That is pretty depressing.

I have said for a while now that Birthday's and Christmas are for the kids.  I get excited for them... not for me.  I guess I have only been like this in my 30's.

Are we too busy to remember someone's birthday anymore?  What happened to sending a birthday card in the mail?  Am I old fashioned?

It's my birthday... and I will cry if I want to.

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