It is funny what things have stuck in my mind from when I was younger. Things people have said. Things that have made me question my worth. I remember my uncle saying with disgust "You only want to do music?" when we were talking about what we wanted to do with our lives. His daughter wanted to work with NASA and I only wanted to be a music teacher! I haven't seen him since then (I was 18) - he would be disgusted that I never got to even be that music teacher (yet) and I am a stay-at-home-mum!
It has only been recently that I have had a sense of pride about who I am, and where I am in my life. I am proud to be a mother and a wife and only a mother and wife. I do not think I am any less of a person for not becoming a doctor or a lawyer or a scientist working at NASA. I do not think I am "dumb" either. I am pretty smart actually. Other people judge, and I used to believe them.
I never went to university. I left school and went into the work force. I have never had any formal training with anything. I pick things up very easily. You only have to show me how to do something once. I usually don't need instructions.
I am very logical. I just do what makes sense. I think this makes me even more proud when I achieve something. With no help. Makes me think I can do anything.
I can do anything!
When we started putting together Hayden's "big boy" room, he chose birch furniture and green as his main colour. Strange child has had a favourite colour since he was 18months old! Since when does an 18month old have a favourite colour?
So, we purchased the birch furniture, and started buying green accent things. I found a green clock for $4 at target. Then I found green fabric boxes for $5 and purchased the 7 that they had left. They fit perfectly inside his square baskets tucked nicely in his birch bookcases, and keep the tiny pieces of lego from falling through the cracks in the baskets.
Then, it was time to purchase him a new bed. I searched high and low for a birch bed. Apart from an ugly, cheap looking thing from ikea, I came up empty. So I thought I will buy an ensemble and MAKE him a headboard!
I did a quick look on youtube, and watched one girl show me how to make a headboard. But this was a headboard that you attached to the wall. It was also a 3 part headboard for a queen size bed. I wanted one piece, with legs (as we have to have it up against a window!).
I went to the hardware store, with only what was in my head and purchased an MDF board, screws, wood, and then went to spotlight and chose a fabric, bought some wadding and went to the foam shop and had the man cut me some foam to size.
I searched for aaaages for some buttons, but I didn't like any of them. I finally bought a self-covering button kit from ebay, and with some frustration, covered my own buttons (the fabric was thick, so it wasn't as easy as it was supposed to be!)
Then, in under 2 hours, I whipped this up. No instructions, no 2nd look on youtube... just doing what I thought was right!
|I made this... all by myself!!!!!|
I am so very very proud to say that I made this. I made this. WOOHOO!!! And more than that, it looks brilliant!!!!! DOUBLE WOOHOO!!!
And the cherry on the top? My darling little boy says "You did such a great job mum. I love it. Thank you!"
What do you think? These babies are selling for $400 in stores. I spent $70 and less than 2 hours!
I am very proud of myself!